So many feelings and words are hard putting down on paper.
So many hopes, memories and dreams are just as hard.
But i will do my best, even that it isn't easy.
'Cause it is hard to rip your heart out.
and then turn it all over until all falls out.
Until you reach to bottom of the root
the root who bind our feelings.
I'm standing here with my hands
a bloody chaos of hate, anger, pain and love.
Yes my whole hearts content.
It is so hard keep on tracking.
but there are some things there are easy recognizing in this mess
that is my dream.
I had a dream i once told to one boy
that dream was about a true friend.
But the boy turned out to be another nightmare of mine.
But that is not what i want to say to you,
what i mean is, that i'm standing here with a empty dream.
a dream about one true friend.
i have waited so long, but still i'm ready to wait a little bit longer,
cause i would never take someone close to me who isn't worthy.
It do maybe sound selfish and arrogant,
but it is because it is my dream.
I dream about a friend.
A friend who can make me feel safe.
a friend who just can look in my eyes,
and tell me how i really fell
i want a friend who can read me as a book,
even if i want it to be closed to everyone.
'cause it is so lonely in my icecold heart of distrust.
behind many thick walls of steel and stone.
but still i will walk alone if i have to,.
'cause not just anyone shall know my hearts content.
but even closed behind walls of steel and stone.
you have found a way through.
even behind a deathcold heart made of ice.
you have broke trough the ice into my bleeding warm heart.
The one heart who has been lonely far to long.
You have a special place in my heart,
i'm hoping you are sitting well
cause i have no desire to let you go.
You are the dream, no not the dream.
Dreams are not real, you are.
You are just as real as the brightest star in the night.
You are just as real as the soft grass beneath my feet.
i don't wish or nor desire anything from you.
I hope this prom could show some of my feelings.
if not, i have to try better next time.
Cause i want to assure you
what joy you have giving me.
what happiness and safety
and i could continued for ever.